Confessions of the Semi-Awakened

Notice I haven't been posting much? Yeah me too. In fact, a few hours ago I sat down here at this very html editor to fess up to how poorly I've been doing with my list. After I got sick around Christmas & New Years... I've had a hard time getting back into the walking outside essential part of my Awakening plan.

And we all know, when the sun comes out and we stay inside... we are (you got it) in The Cave. Hell, even when it's storming and raining (maybe especially then, cuz it's so easy), if I stay in my pjs for a few days... Cave.

Anyway... a couple hours ago, I sat here to rag on myself about how crappily I have done etc etc. But as I stared at the writing area, I just couldn't do it. I thought, "this is dumb. I can talk shit about myself, or I can just freakin go outside." Actually I said it outloud, as I tend to do. And I got up and got my stuff together to go for a walk... admittedly, after some pacing and removing and re-donning my jacket, I did go. lol. sigh.

We had a nice chilly walk at the waterfront. Then to reward myself for being out in the world, we stopped at the fabric store on the way home. I've been wanting to make a new outside dog bed, so I challenged myself to get all the stuff for it using the cash I had in my wallet... and I still have $3 left! That was fun.

Ok, so in conclusion... PARTS of my awakening plan are a bit lax right now, but OTHER parts are working quite well (I didn't talk much about those parts, good topic for tomorrow I guess). Now, I must find an amusing photo that illustrates how I feel or something.